Last night, H and I were sitting together on the couch. When it was just about time to get ready for bed, I asked H what he would like for lunch tomorrow. He told me what he wanted, then he asked me, "Why are you being so nice to me lately?" He jokingly asked if I had taken out an insurance policy. I took it as a retorical question and just giggled back at him.
I made his lunch then got ready for bed. He came up a little bit later. I was already drifting off to sleep, but I decided I should talk to H about his earlier question. I asked him if he really would like to know or if he already had a pretty good idea. He said, "No, I don't know, but I like it." I told him how I've been feeling so much more clear-headed since starting AD. He wondered why just now, after taking them for 2 1/2 years. I told him that working on a big project and having to make so many decisions together back to back finally made it very clear to me how I was irritating him. I told him that with other disagreements, it was harder to realize as fully what I did because he didn't get after me for it until he blew up at me for something else. He knows that he does that so he understood all of what I was saying. I also told him that seeing how good it made him feel for me to see what I've been doing wrong, made me what to do more things to make him feel good. He gave me a big hug and we drifted off to sleep! Big Sigh.
