Haven't posted for a bit, but I thought recently it might be time to broach with H the subject of intimacy. He's quite LD which I'm fine with but I like the hand holds, the compliments, the kisses (smackers rather than dry pecks).
He always said if I had a problem just tell it to him straight - so I did. I wasn't critical, I said I understood it would take time and that a solution would be out there somewhere, it may just take it a while to find.
Then on Sunday we got slightly drunk and had a silly row - bad things were said on both sides. We talked the next day and I asked if we could forget it, H agreed.
But I don't think he has \:\(
I am worried I'll put him right back to his ILYBINILWY and so for now I'm backing off all R talks, making sure I cheerlead him when he does something well, making sure too that when I'm around him I appear relaxed and happy. It seems to be going OK, I'm hoping he's just in his "cave" and he'll come out in a few days.
I suppose I'm posting cos I STILL need you guys!!! \:\(
Why do I manage to royally mess things up? I always seem to be getting it wrong. Life was SO HAPPY then I try to improve our R and H feels got at (despite me telling him that everything else in our life together is great and that he DOES make me happy). I feel like I can't win here, that to stay married I have to pretend everything is fine all the time and have no complaints and make no attempt to improve things.
Sorry - getting a bit dramatic here \:\(
I'll be OK - and I'm looking forward to the phone call to Memphis and also CM - I'll be back on the phone to you too, been hiding out a bit over this issue.

Take care all \:\)


Bomb (ILYBINILWY, don't want to be married)Sept05
Seperated Sept/Oct 05
Oct 06 - H recomitted
July 11 - I am now a WAW.