New day, I don't know if I should stay in piecing or go to newcomers. I feel like I'm starting over, maybe even at a point lower than over. I'm hurting so bad right now, it's crazy how much you whole body can hurt inside and out.
Riding with FIL yesterday, he asks how things are going. Different question coming from him, he never asks about us. Then he tells me that if someone would have told him 5 years ago that he would have heard things he has recently heard, he never would have believed them. Never.
I was really curious now. So I asked and he told me. He had talked to W two weeks ago. During the conversation he told W that if he were married to someone and they were saying those things, (W told him she doesn't want to touch me, be with me, anything with me), FIL would think they want a divorce. W said, "dad, that's what I want". FIL was/is shocked. FIL can't believe this is coming out of W's mouth. FIL said to me, "it seems she wants to be 20 again, like she is some high schooler just getting to college and wants to spend all her time partying". I didn't say anything. Then FIL said, "W better realize she is almost 40, has 4 kids and responsibilities or she will lose everything".
I could only say, yeah. All I could think was, W doesn't care, she wants to lose everything.
