I'm really glad you had that conversation. I have done that sometimes, too, and I find it really helps a lot. Very often, I have misread what H meant. I wonder if he meant to say "I can't presume to understand..." Anyway, that's what he meant, it seems.
I know how hard it is to force yourself to do things when you just want to cry. This is a really hard time for you. Not only are you moving, but you are having to let go of your dreams and vision of what your retirement with your H would be like. That is HARD, AH - be gentle with yourself. The D on its own would be enough w/o the extra baggage.
~ Nicola
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