I know you are right and I am trying hard to detach and make myself completely unavailable. I know that he has to earn my trust back after a lot of maturing and work on himself. It's just hard being he was my life for so long. But I am trying!! Today is the first day that he won't see either of our kids or talk to them at all. It will be interesting to see if he calls here to say good night to them. Our S4 is going to be devastated if he doesn't. Oh well, he will lose both his kids and then maybe he will figure it out! I went to the gym tonight, came home, made dinner for my kids and just put them to bed. I am not calling, I am not texting, I am doing absolutely nothing. I can't get out of my mind what he could be doing though. Is he at the office like he says he is, is he out with the guys, is he out with the girl from work, is he out with someone else? AAAH It is enough to drive me crazy! I am not working at anything right now, I am trying to just accept my awful reality and move forward as best I can.
