Thanks, HB. You're absolutely right about everything you said. How are you? Post on your thread when you have time. Your story is encouraging to me.

Just got back from dinner a while ago. We had a nice time. When we left, H and I were talking while I was sitting in my car and he was standing outside. He went to leave, and he told me to roll down my window the rest of the way. I asked him why, and he said so I could give him my lips! So I did, and he gave me ANOTHER passionate kiss! It was so nice and made my heart beat so fast... (sigh...) Then he said "I'll see you later" and smiled as he walked away... Sometimes when he's said he'll see me later he has come home that night, so we'll see... Not getting my hopes up, just rejoicing in yet another small baby step.

I rescheduled my plans this weekend with my friend, as she is going to be in the area Friday. So we're going to dinner and going to watch Titanic (I haven't seen it yet...) and paint our nails and hang out! She might spend the night, as she lives about 45 minutes away. H will be out of town, so it would be perfect, as she wouldn't expect him to be here. I'm really looking forward to it.

I got dressed up really nice for dinner tonight, and that felt really good, too. Was nice to go out to dinner with the investors and get caught up on what they've been up to.

Am going down to my parents' house for Mother's Day the following weekend. It will be the first time that I've been down there by myself since this all happened. I'm really nervous, as they are VERY intuitive. I have to work hard to not let on that anything is wrong. I love them so much and miss spending time with them and talking to them more, but it's just so hard right now. I hope I can get down there and just put all of this in the back of my mind and enjoy being with them. I'm looking forward to it and am apprehensive at the same time. It will be nice to get out of town and see them. My Mom is truly my best friend, which is bitter sweet right now. They love H like he's their own son. It's really hard. But, I'm determined to put on a happy face and happy heart and act as if and enjoy my time away and their company. It will be nice to go "home" to mom and dad.

I also have a counseling session tomorrow. Will let you know how that goes.

Will let you know what happens tonight. Until then, PMA, keep improving my state of mind and myself, and enjoy (cautiously) the baby steps.... (Those kisses were soooooooooo nice... Why is it that after the infatuation stage we don't relish those anymore??? How and why does that happen? I feel like a teenager again! )