Thank you all for visiting and for the wonderful support.
I have just gone from bad to worse. Came home to a letter from the L. Actually, a copy of the most recent missive from H's L. Upshot, there are still two issues that I just won't agree to. I will negotiate a little, but only on one of them.
So, I called my L, and asked if I could talk to H directly. He say sure, try. So I called H. Was very firm and, not nasty or name calling, just firm about one issue, and offering to talk about the other.
Got off the phone with H, immediately burst into tears. It is looking like a June 1st date...so soon.
So...a little time passes. I call H back and say maybe I sent the wrong message on the last phone call. Maybe it seemed like it was all about the money for me. But it isn't it is entirely about the heartbreak. That he will only talk to me about money and property, so that is what I talk about, but for me it is about a broken heart. Of course I am crying through this.
Then I say that I want him to sign in front of me. That we were together when we started this, and want to be together at the end. That I don't want him to be able to pretend that he is doing this alone, or in isolation.
He said he couldn't pretend to understand how I feel (I don't know what he meant, about the heartbreak or the wanting him to sign...) but that he heard me. He said he'd call me back about both items.
Now I just can't stop crying.
Okay. Put one foot in front of the other. I'm going to walk, then get us some supper, then head out to meeting.
