Hey there Fizzle - Glad you are OK. Stressed, but otherwise OK ;\)

Originally Posted By: fizzle
work is wild, I am stressed out and slow...budget cuts expected 7/1, hope I dont' join the ranks of the unemployed.


I hope so too! It is entirely understandable that you are feeling anxious, with this sort of possibility looming. I remember early in my working life, a similar situation, with rumours that the European HQ that I was part of, was to be axed. It was frankly paralysing. Nothing seemed worth doing as it may all be junked. Fortunately I had a great boss who wisely suggested keeping our heads low, getting on with the job and making the quality of work our testimony. And it proved absolutely the right thing to do, there were cutbacks, but they were mostly folks who could not show productive hours. I guess it is a bit like dbing, in that the important element here is to understand what you can actually control. Oh, and always have an up to date resume.

Originally Posted By: fizzle

A time or two I have mentioned my anxieties, and H has gotten irritated that he just wants to forget (???) and that he can't if/when I keep bringing it back up.


I hear ya! Why oh why can they not understand that we need to be reassured that nothing is going on, nothing will ever go on again, and that they are so, so, so sorry they put us through hell Reality check - neither NG, nor your H, nor any of the other WAHs are likely to do this. So, recalling the notion of cheeseless tunnels, I guess the best option is to move on. Yes, highly unsatisfying. But it does get easier with time. 18 months ago I was constantly waiting for the other show to drop - if he is not telling me all's OK, that he is sorry, then all must be not OK. Frankly I tortured myself needlessly. And yes, he said pretty much the same thing, how can I forget if you keep reminding me


Originally Posted By: fizzle

I need a vacation....
and I need to balance the check book, pay bills, clean house, fix supper......no wonder I feel tired.

so, all in all, I'm not too sure how I'm doing!



Yes, it is no wonder at all that you feel tired. Honey, you need to prioritize, and start with item number 1 - be kind to fizzle. Some of the stress and anxiety is more than likely a direct consequence of not being able to enjoy the moment. Life is now - make the most of it! Decide that you are doing well, regardless of the situation.

Hugs to you, Slowly

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