Maybe it's just stress or hormones or whatever but i refuse to be seconds to another ow again. I just can't do it. I feel this strong urge to just file- I picked up paperwork already when I did the c/s alimony thing. I just can't keep doing this to myself-

So he comes back months from now, then what? He leaves again? I would always be scared of that. that is no way to live my life.


I emailed him and told him that I wanted to file- He got upset. I told him it wasn't what I truly wanted but I was not going to be a second class citizen and be waiting around for the new to wear off the new ow. I told him that I needed the D to move on- He said whatever you need to tell yourself to make you feel better about doing it.

Whatever that means


Lisa

Me:37
H:38
6 kids
first bomb 8/05 (ow involved)
piecing 7/06
second bomb 3/07 ow involved
wash rinse repeat....
huge move to start over 2/11
more affairs
H left for good 8/12