Yes GEL - you are right. It's not ME that is stopping the process from happening, it is HIM but he seems to like to point fingers that its my problem and "I know its going to be hard for you to trust me and I know you might never" - well, I am tired of hearing that line too. If he REALLY want me to get past the mistrust then he would be doing everything in his power to help me. I know, ultimately, my feelings belong to me but we are only a few months into this (second time around) mess and if he isn't doing anything now how can I possibly get past this

I know I have to face the music but it sure isn't going to be easy. However, if we are going to get through this it can't be all on my head. After all, he said to me again last night "it had nothing to do with you, there is nothing wrong with you" - if that is the case, then why am I the one carrying the burden of rebuilding the trust?

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
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Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)