Couldn't sleep last night. Cried my eyes out until about 4am. sometimes I miss my H so bad. I wish so much he was here with me. I know some of you are going to get upset at me for being needy or whatever- I haven't called himor anything I am just putting it out here- I am sure I will get slammed. My heart just ached and all I could see was all the good things and times we shared. It just playing over and over in my head. I am really scared. I know I will make it either way but it hurts like hell and I look at myself sometimes and think of what I could have done differently then my kids would have their dad- even though I know in my head this is his choice, my heart is heavy. I want to reach out so bad. But I know I can't. He is with someone now who will give him what I couldn't -
love,'Lisa
Me:37 H:38 6 kids first bomb 8/05 (ow involved) piecing 7/06 second bomb 3/07 ow involved wash rinse repeat.... huge move to start over 2/11 more affairs H left for good 8/12
