Hey cat, thanks for the welcome. You are right it is scary for me and for him, he is wondering if I am going to keep up the changes,and I am wondering if he is going to keep calling the ow to get back with her, or if he has really even ended it, or if he is lying to shut me up, and she hasn't gone back to her ex, but they are playing some huge game with me.
He has started showing me more affection, especially since the note I put in his lunch the other day said I missed his time and affection. And I think he HAS to feel that even if he thinks everything is my fault, that he did neglect me too.
When I came across the tape a few weeks ago, I recorded of her messages to my H, I heard about one sentence before I shut it off, and felt sick to my stomach. I can't listen to it. I no longer snoop in his car not since last summer. I want his respect so I think he will give it to me if I go back to work. I am going to start part-time, and I will be there after school for our S.
