If there are things around the house that "remind" you, perhaps you can pack them away for the time being, or at least put them somewhere else so you don't get those reminders everytime you walk pass them. Sometimes you just have to rearrange things and it will make you feel better. A change of scenery, so to speak.
If you feel like crying - cry. Crying cleanses the soul. It is ok to cry you know. It shows you have feelings and its REALLY good therapy. Unfortunately, our society doesn't allow for men to cry as much as it should. However, don't allow it to take over your life either. Have a good cry and then move forward
I know it feels like the whole world has abandoned you now, but that is just your own self pity (to some degree) you are hurt and want to be comforted. That is normal. Talk to the people here. We can only give you virtual hugs but its better than nothing and at least we can understand your pain, unlike a lot of people around you that simply don't understand what you are going through
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)