I had to take a break from posting this weekend. Sometimes you just gotta walk away from it....
I'm really not having a good feeling. I'm trying to have patience, but I think I waited too late. She really was firm Friday saying that it wasn't going to work out. It's amazing how "unbending" she is. I think her friends have empowered her and she feels confident in making the move.
I don't want to give up, but when do you have to realize that it's just not going to happen? I'm not one who quits. It's probably a fault I have. I just don't quit, ever.
I guess I'm going to have to put my life back together and move on. I really am afraid.
I'm going to a gym today to find out about a membership. I'm going to work on me. I've lost a lot of weight, probably 15+ lbs. I'm going to get healthy and looking good, for me. And so I'll look hot with a flat tummy for whatever the future holds. Everthing could workout even better than it has been. Someone younger and able to have a few kids. Who knows, it could be a lot of fun dating again. (I can't believe I just said that.)
2in2, as Clinton said, "I feel your pain". However, I really mean it.
I haven't had time today to read thru all the post since my last one, but I will soon. Thanks everyone for their support!
