Journaling

I didn't hear from H over the weekend. I expected a spew (via phone), but it didn't happen. Everything is so quiet. I don't know whether this is good or bad.

I kept myself very busy yesterday working in the yard b/c my mind began playing tricks on me again. If I allow myself to get pulled down into H's world, I start to question my own sanity.

For instance, I call my Mom every morning at 7 AM. At 7:30 yesterday I looked at the clock and couldn't remember if I called her but assumed that I had. She called me at 8 b/c I hadn't called. Right then, I knew it was time to back off .. way off, and get my mind on something other than H and the legal mess that's going on.

Anyway, my yard looks great. I spent 5 hours mowing, weeding, seeding, trimming, the works. It's also good therapy for me. I called Mom this morning right on the dot (lol!) so I'm doing lots better today.

Hope everyone had a good weekend .. or at least a decent one. When you have a spouse in MLC, sometimes it's hard to relax and enjoy the little things in life, but it's so very important for our own mental health.

Val