Ya know, ya think you're used to something and then boom it rips your heart out again. OW was away for the weekend so things were "normal". Spouse just came by and said "I'll be home in the morning".

And you think: "detach, heart ripping out, what the f is wrong with you?" and then ya just feel it all over. The slap in the face. The quiet disappointment that is numbing and horribly painful at the same time.

God I hate this.

I have a shovel and I'm not afraid to use it.
Stubby