I don't think the comments on Chrome's thread have helped you at all. It seems to me that they've done nothing more than leave you even less satisfied.
Your lack of remorse over your inappropriate behavior with Chrome concerns me, and you are right, entitlement it is. What bothers me the most, is why an intelligent woman like yourself can't see the bent road you are making for yourself.
Let me give you a clue. Your choices are not your husband's fault.
It sucks that he left you. I understand that you are pissed off. So why don't you give the man a chance to comfort you about it? "Hubby, I find myself stuck in an endless loop where the thoughts of your having left me, infuriate me. I need your help"
I understand the pain, LFL, but you are looking in the wrong direction for a fix. Sitting back and stewing and brewing a nice comfortable pot of resentment is going to lead to a bad situation, and you know it.
So I will tell you two other things that will probably make you mad, but I know that it is within you to handle this situation.
1) You should have experienced guilt and remorse over the EA (or whatever you want to call it, as long as you acknowledge it was wrong).
2) You should be pressing into your husband for comfort in the areas where he directly hurt you. He should be the one telling you he is sorry and showing his remorse for his actions and trying to comfort you with reassurances that it won't happen again.
Dump the resentment and go get what you need from your husband.
All the best, -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
