Well, I am really struggling right now. I've appreciated all the comments made on Chrome's thread and need some direction in how to proceed here in my own M. My thoughts, feelings, and behaviors are not in a solid place to work on my M. I don't know how much of this I should be sharing with my H. I'm usually a fairly honest person when it comes to expressing my feelings so the disconnect with H lately is really worrying me. I'm also feeling some resentment again regarding his leaving and I question whether I will ever truly come to grips with that fact. I use that event to justify some of my own current thoughts and behaviors and I know that is a no win situation. I am having thoughts of just escaping, ending the whole M. It is still just fantasy but it is disturbing to me. And if the kids weren't involved it would be a whole other story. I just don't know what to do. Should I suck it up and deal with these feelings and see if they pass or should I talk to my H and risk creating more of a rift? I do love him but the lack of passion/connection is just about killing me. Maybe some of you see a clear answer but I sure don't. LFL
