Journaling a bit today...

I've hit a rock wall in terms of having family support and it's terrifying....my mother is a very unique and not very mentally healthy person. As I continue this journey, I realize i put up with so much of the emotional/verbal stuff from my husband because I was so used to it with my mother.

I took a trip last week with my best friend to Florida. We had been planning it for a while and I funded it apart from 'marital' funds thanks to a Sr. Management award I received at work for doing a great job....husband encouraged me to go, even with the situation being as it is...came back to find out my mom is snooping around to confirm it was my female Best friend I went with and not this 'mystery' guy she is convinced I'm having an affair with ...had to bite the bullet and write a very detailed letter outlining boundaries and expressing my feelings of hurt and disgust at her thoughts and actions...was very soothing to write it all out and now I just wait for the [censored] to hit the fan...

I am oddly calm...feeling as though I've come to a point where there is nothing I can't do..even alone..if I have to....I'm enjoying this new found strength and can only hope my family comes around and starts to actually support me....