Walk Like a Princess

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PWS

sorry you are having such a bad weekend.
The mind sometimes just won't let go and consumes us with
thoughts that race in circles leading to another thought
until we are exhausted.

Funny movies is a great idea, I found that if I laugh and
relax things seem better even if just for a little while.

I understand about the no friends for my H is a Dr. and knows
a lot of people that we socialized with. I have not been able to
go out with out running into someone. Makes it very uncomfortable
for he has not told people about us OR he has told them "we have been having problems for yrs and WE decided to D" I heard this from a best friend and I was fit to be tied and put in a padded cell!!!

I find it easier now to say he is not with me living in xyz and well at times depending on who it is...he has an OW.
yes I have told people that he has found someone else so damage control will be necessary should he come back.

The worse is that I can't go anywhere with out someone saying are you so and so's wife... I have no personal identity...just someone's wife...this never bugged me until now.
I was proud to be his wife and do the volunteer stuff and well now I can't do half of what I did for they do not call out of fear of getting in the middle of us and thinking they have to take sides. Immaturity when you pick sides.. that is all i will say.

The CC you need to cancel them if they are in your name and he is using them... WAKE UP CALL to him!!
If he wants CC he needs to get his own and will have to upon D so why not show him what it is going to be like. This is not being mean but putting him in reality of what the future will be like.

It will be a yr in June that my H left and I knew about OW but he did not admit it to me until Aug. when he said it was over.
So now why would someone attempt to come home 3 times if he was in love with OW? why would he not have filed for D yet? these questions haunt me some days. Other days I think stupid jerk he messed up my life and my kids why do I even think about him.

I have found that keeping really busy does help.
Barnes and Nobles has online classes for fun, well they use to have not done one since last fall.

Is there a 4H headquarters near you?? if yes they do a horsemanship badge. I was a 4H leader and we had a hard time getting someone to let kids come and groom and saddle horses and ride for an hr. We found someone and we paid her for her time.
Something to think about. The leaders do all the work you just have to provide a horse and answer questions maybe only once for they usually come out for a few hrs and get it all done.

I am still in a tizzy over H's sister coming this week... so trying to clean house and pick up my yard and show him that even with an injury I am doing just fine with out him. She was here in Jan and he brought her here. She was not nice and told him that the ivy was killing the trees.. don't get me started for it is a full time job all summer keeping it off..

Hope tomorrow is better
H