It's been awhile

[Heywyre]

Hey Tyler - sounds like you had a pretty good night. Nothing like a house full of laughing kids to make you appreciate life right?

Yes, we all know why we hold on when everyone else says to let go a million times. There is something inside us, that no one else can feel except us. WE know when the right time is to let go, ONLY us. I know because I am going through this for the second time around. If someone would have told me 5 years ago this is what my life held for me, I would have said "no way, I will be outta there the first time". Well, I wasn't was I? and here I am now, the second time around and I am still hanging in there. Why? I could give you a whole heck of a lot of reasons but why bother, it is different for everyone. All I know is that I am not ready to throw in the towel just yet. I see improvements and, for the most part, they are starting to become more than the bad parts, and it hasn't been like that for a long, long time. We are going for C, something I NEVER thought my H would do. He is reading books about A's and relationships. THAT in itself blew me away. So I know he is wanting to make the changes and is trying to work towards fixing this mess. We both have our faults. But we also both have to leave them behind us and carve a new path for us to walk down. It is painstakingly slow but at least we are moving in the right direction

I wish you the same