Had a great night, my niece is awesome, what a great musical. The kids had a blast. Went to eat with the cast afterwards. My kids loved every minute. W called while we were out to say goodnight. The difference in her call earlier and tonight was.., night and day, no pun intended. She was definitely putting some distance between us compared to earlier. Whatever. These posts by AmyC made my night. I thought I would put them here as a reminder to keep my shoulder to the wheel.
"If I can leave you with anything now it is simply this:
The heart of a walk-away wife, no matter how "done" she says she is and even appears to be, her heart can be turned back to her husband in all it's fullness.
You don't have to look far for proof."
and this one really hits home as I know the only reason she hasn't filed is lack of funds.
If you want evidence that your wife's feelings can one day change, I am proof because there can't BE a woman more gone from a marriage mentally and emotionally than I was. The only reason I didn't file back then was because I couldn't afford to. But I shredded us in every other area that existed, I assure you.
What I would implore you to do is consider that sometimes the most effective way to wage a war is from a seated (and silent) position.
So I will keep on keeping on. The changes I've made were necessary, for me and permanent. I could give up, walk away and start over fresh with someone else armed with the self-knowledge I've developed through reading DR, these boards and applying the lessons learned. It would be a lot easier. Yet I want to do this right for all the right reasons. I don't have to explain it further to anyone reading so far. Everyone here knows why we keep on keeping on even when friends and family say to walk away and start over fresh with someone else.
Well, I'm beat, my kids and some friends are having a guitar hero battle. It's a house full of laughing kids. I know its late but tomorrow they can sleep in. I'm going to go chill and enjoy the show. Because this is why we DB, if I'm going to work this hard at something, take my lumps day in and day out, I'm going to enjoy the perks..., seeing my kids happy.
