Will this OW ever go away??!!

[johns_blondie]

I guess I need to start from the beginning. I'm 38 my H is 40. We have a S14. We've been together for 22 years and the first marriage lasted 17. We D after his affair and walk out in 2005/2006. He was in Iraq when he met OW. We D in May of 06 and re-married in July of 06 (I know...short lived D) but we were separated from Dec 05 until D.

OK...maybe you can follow some of this or maybe I'm just rambling...I don't know anymore...there's so much to tell.

H met OW in Iraq and OW ended up moving across country to be with him in our state when they returned. She now lives 4 miles from us.

First of all...I would never have re-married him again if I thought that A was still going on. I had started GAL and basically he didn't like it. He wanted me back only to keep someone else from having me.

I love this man more than I understand. He was and has always been my first love. He loves me but I honestly think he can't give up this OW and it's taking a toll on me greatly.

I have caught the two of them together more than once and just the other day I found out that he spent Tuesday with her out of town for her birthday. He was supposed to have been on a business trip.

I am trying my best to hold it together and not confront him because he would only lie and there's no reason to stir up a hornets nest right now. When I say that I mean that he leaves on May 5th to go back to Iraq for 6 months.

I love this man....this is so hard. Why can't she see that she's only ever going to be the OW. I'm NOT GIVING UP ON MY MARRIAGE!!

My clues to say that he's in MLC... He's 40..He just bought a Harley and new Mustang Shelby, he's getting gray...and losing it too....and STRESSED to the max basically because he's having a hard time carrying on two lives.

The only thing I know that I have to do is stay calm. It's really hard. By the way, did I mention that I have to go to an Oncologist on Thursday to have a bone marrow aspiration to see if I have some form of blood disorder cancer.

At this point in my life I need my husband more than ever and he's only giving me "parts" of him. It's killing me knowing that he's sharing his heart with someone else.

CALGON...TAKE ME AWAY!!