My comment about tailspins was not an attempt at guilt-tripping or searching for sympathy, just an explanation of why I hadn't responded and how it is clear to me that I am not a rock.
Yes I have lots of fear about the future, in all directions. But what affected me the most was the thought that no matter what I do wrt women and R's I screw something up badly. In trying to deal with my own pain I just end up causing a lot more in other people.
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
