I wouldn't worry about the phone calls with OM. They could be meaningless drivel or just the last vestiges of a dying relationship. I'd just ignore it because chances are if that's not happening yet, it eventually will. The majority of these affairs eventually die a slow ugly death.

I'm glad to hear you're working on you and your anxiety. That should be a main focus. Channel it into your artwork. That's what pain and anxiety is for (a fuel for creativity!).

There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.