I hear you about the AD meds. Our MC suggested I go to a doc and get on some meds. I want to talk with my family doc first, since he knows my sitch about as well as anyone.
If you need them, don't hesitate. They can fairly quickly release the mind from being too wrapped up in itself.
Find the right Dr. -- one that understands not every AD works the same in every person. And, understand that if one has bad side effects for you, you've got to have courage and hope to try something else. More than likely, there is something that can help. Lexapro has worked best for myself, and my wife.
Don't take them if you don't need them. But, give the professionals you trust a chance to assess whether you need them or not.
My favorite book on Depression, and various treatments, is "Against Depression" -- can't remember the author (he also wrote "Listening to Prozac"). It's a real disease. And there are good treatments.
If you are LD, be aware some people experience decreased libido. For me, it just took the edge off of my frustion. (My wife was/is LD.)
