well the book can't even be applied because of other issues that exist.
Runner,
By the way I completely understand your need for running. I probably ran 40-50 miles a week when me XH and I separated for the second time. I was definitely using it as an anti depressant. My counselor who is a runner also said there are known AD benefits to long distance running for 60 minutes or longer. However you definitely need to watch your health. I do not remember you answering Ellie's (KML) question about your menstruating cycles. Also running every day may also be a problem. You need at LEAST one rest day a week.
It cannot and will not happen over night but from everything I have read I am sure things can improve for you and your H.
I do still get my cycle...it is my antidepressant...and I am not a good mom at home if I don't get a run or workout in. I am short tempered and seem to be angry. I hate that. But if that time to myself gives me what I need to be a good mom to them...well i do then. I do have a day off...most of the time. I am only averaging 20-25 miles a week...and I lift 5-6 days a week. So I try to balance things. I know an antidepressant would help with the mood...and the short term effects of the runners high seems to be getting shorter...but I really don't want to take any meds.
