Awwww, {{{H}}}, of course you are normal & of course it hurt your feelings. Just b/c you are a DBing fool doesn't mean your feelings go away! You have been missing & wanting H for a long time, your emotions are fragile (altho your mind is spirit is so incredibly strong to begin & continue standing strong for your R & M). You have worked HARD! Of course you're feelings of rejection came back & bit you. Realize, please, that it will take a while for you to really feel safe w/H; that he will honor & protect your heart. That's part of the Piecing you both ar learning. And, for what it's worth, I don't think H took whta you would feel into consideration when he 'declined'. It is, again, not about you, and for that I'm soo sorry, but that's - still - the way it is.
{{{H}}}} I'm sorry sorry you're feeling down. You are NOT cracking up, you are just a normal girl with normal emotions who wants to be loved by her man.
Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
Me: 45 - WAH: 36 S8; D6 M: 11 yrs 07/06 Initial Bomb 10/06; D Bomb 11/06 - DBing begun 1/5/07 - H moved out 03/16/07 To date: No papers filed; H not seen a L; trying to convince me to MUTUALLY file for D
