Feeling a bit stupid and a bit used and need to get it off my chest.
W and I had a few heated exchanges on Sunday via text. At one point she said she wanted to change the arrangements for seeing D this week to Thursday rather than Wednesday. I said that wasn't convenient as we have agreed on days and times.
After she moved out she spent a lot of time trying to change arrangements we had made so I've always stuck firm to what we agreed.
On Monday after our emergency with the potential gas leak, I got lots of concerned texts from W during the day and then again at night. On Tuesday she texted twice in the morning to check and once at night. I didn't get that message 'til Wednesday morning and got back to her to say we were ok. She then replied 'good. Can I see D on Thursday this week then?'. I guess I felt I wanted to be positive with her as she'd been making the effort so I said ok.
Guess what?, no contact since. I now think that she was being manipulative and was only being pleasant to get her own way. I could be wrong but that's how I feel. And if it's true, it really is pathetic. W says she wants to be friends with me but I can't se how that would work when she's reallly only interested in getting her own way. I don't trust her motives at all any more and I just don't recognise her.
I'm beginning to think that she has been pretty selfish for much of our life together but that I chose to ignore it much of the time because it didn't seem to be at my expense. Now it certainly is and it sure helps with the detaching. I really can't be bothered with even seeing her today so I'll avoid her.
