how's it going today? I know you are feeling down but, believe it or not, things will get better. However, if you are obsessive about things, that would indicate depression (mild or not) and a visit to the doctor would be in order. I don't condone the use of drugs but let me tell ya, from someone who has been through this hell twice now, AD can get you over the hump. They don't take away the problems but they sure do make sorting through them a whole heck of a lot easier.
Give it some thought if it becomes too much for you or you find yourself dwelling constantly on it. When I say "obsessing" that usually means it is affecting your day-to-day activities. If what you are going through is doing that, you need something to get over it. Otherwise it will not only take longer but it can quite possibly drag you down deeper and then it will be even harder to get out.
The first time this happened to me I only had to take them for 3-4 months. I haven't had to this time (fingers crossed) but my H is back on them, and probably for good. He's had them reduced once, but yesterday when he suggested it to the doc he said "they've worked well for your mental health, let's not mess with that right now" and I was thrilled because I really don't want to go through that hell again, EVER!!
Oh, and here is another saying for you: The grass is always greener, but it still has to be mowed
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
