My snooping obsession maybe the nail in the coffin

[2stardog]

I can forgive. I actually already do. Us humans make errors in judgement daily. I love my wife w/out measure. But, I'm not sure she can forgive me for my snooping problem. Just as she chose to stray, I chose to snoop (invade her privacy). She seems more angry about my deeds than I do about her continued quasi-platonic relationship w/OM. He wants her so bad and I think that pressure may soon to get to her(negatively for the OM) 'Til then, I just need to GAL in a major way. We are still in the same house and same (mostly sexless) bed. Where we still hold each other every night. I know she loves me but she'd been unhappy for sometime before the EA turned PA. Now it's back to an EA because she realized it was a huge mistake and it's taken her a while to figure out how to "go backward" w/out damaging a friendship she valued. I wish she placed a greater value on our marriage. But since the "bomb dropped" in November
I've been erratic in my behavior at best....not much fun to be around. Pass the anti-depressants please...... I need to do a 180, but it's so hard when you're still co-habitating.