So do you suppose maybe now is the time for you to throw it in neutral and take your hands off the wheel...?
If you are asking me do I feel I can let her go on the current path she has taken? I honestly have to say, "Not w/o a fight". I look at the woman I once knew, or thougth I knew (however you want to look @it). I see the person that I wanted to spend the rest of my life w/. I see, or saw, that after the pain w/ both admitted causing each other, we both began working on creating something special again. Now I see, for no apparent reason, other than W says she changed between then and now, it all falling to pieces again. She blames me for feeling dead inside, but she can't tell me when, why, how or what I did to make her feel that way. Only that she's changed. I see someone who dearly wanted to be a mother and have nothing but her childrens' best interest @ heart, turn bitter and impatient w/ them, b/c "she's changed". I've seen someone who is loved by a caring family and good friends, who would do anything, save watch her walk away, completely turn her back on them, b/c she's changed. Yet she can't see all that she has done or is able to justify it in her mind.
I have posted several times, and told W the same, that I could not be friends w/ her after D. I don't know if that holds true or not. I will always consider her to be W. I still L my W more than anything, equally to my Ss. W has always accused my of going overboard when I try to reach a goal And when I say accused I mean it in a good way. I am also loyal to no end. I will fight for those I love and what I believe in. I'm sure I do go overboard sometimes. I also envision the thoughts and pain that will go through 2 Ss and continue to tear @ them everytime their M & I would get together. Their hope, justified or not, of us getting back together. I read on the BB about S/D going through this right now. The emotional problems and issues. The constant tugging @ the kids. I know half dozen families, right now, D'd and the kids changing houses every week, going to C, dealing w/ self destuctive behavior. Their parents took the "high road". The show the kids L. They don't demonize the S. They don't talk bad about the S. The do as much as they can as a "family" and the kids are still a wreck. All this b/c someone "changed".
So ya, I'd have to say I wouldn't let go w/o a fight.
And when I say accused I mean it in a good way. I am also loyal to no end. I will fight for those I love and what I believe in. I'm sure I do go overboard sometimes. I also envision the thoughts and pain that will go through 2 Ss and continue to tear @ them everytime their M & I would get together. Their hope, justified or not, of us getting back together. I read on the BB about S/D going through this right now. The emotional problems and issues. The constant tugging @ the kids. I know half dozen families, right now, D'd and the kids changing houses every week, going to C, dealing w/ self destuctive behavior. Their parents took the "high road". The show the kids L. They don't demonize the S. They don't talk bad about the S. The do as much as they can as a "family" and the kids are still a wreck. All this b/c someone "changed".
