Dammm!!!!!!!! I find my thread and read my last post and find it very annoying that I cannot maintain one F-ing! month! of happiness. The strange part is most of the R with H is "fine." He doesn't know how stressed I am and I don't have the desire to share it with him. I just need to vent here right now. I am feeling a little overwhelmed. I'm stressed about what I wrote yesterday, I'm stressed about lots of crap going on at work, I'm stressed that one of my best friends just told me she is getting separated (by her choice), and I am feeling just so tired of the monotony. I think I look for trouble just to make my life a little more interesting, a little more passionate, a little more...something. I know this is all about ME! Which is good and bad. I have no one but myself to blame. Why can't I just get my sh!t together!!!! Ahhhh!!!! H and I have a lovely weekend planned so at least I have some things to look forward to. I need to pull myself together. But my emotions are constantly getting the best of me. I'm way too emotional for my own good. I hate being bored. I hate the drudgery of life. But sometimes that is what you just have to put up with right? It's not all fun and games. Ok, I'm done venting for now. I'm sorry if I am not getting to other people's threads. Oh, Mojo, I did see your new picture and really liked it. Have fun on your dates. You deserve it. Gotta go deal with "real life" now.
