I think she's very sure. She's made that very clear. She's probably just having a hard time doing it. I know that she's been avoiding anyone that might not support her. She won't even return calls to our Counselor. She only talks with people that will "validate" her position and support her.
I guess that's what friends are for. And friends mean well. But they just want their friend to heal fast. They often don't know the entire story.
I called her back to find out about tonight. She didn't answer her office phone, cell, or the home number. She's probably not going to call me back.
I just keep getting more and more angry about the whole thing as the day goes on. I'm angry at her. I'm angry at myself. My counselor says that it's ok and that I really need to be angry more often and stop bottling it up. May be I should take up boxing or something. Then I could go on the cagefighting. (No not a chance.)
My wife and I probably had less than 10 fights in our entire marriage (13 years). No, it's probably more like less than 5 fights. We're both "peace keepers". May be if we had more fights we would have had more sex!?! (we could have had "make up" sex.)
I'm just venting and being bitter and sarcastic. Sorry to keep doing it...
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2in2, I'm going to try to keep out of dispair and the Governor may call in a last second stay.
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I think I just going to stay angry for a few days and get it out of my system. Do some mourning too. Then get back to the business of building my life back to a better me.
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I think that I'm madder at myself than my wife, but then I'm mad at her to.
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"Looks like i picked the wrong week to quit sniffing glue."
