The darkness does not endure!

[BeingMe]

I am feeling somewhat better today - calmer. I think it's my H's upcoming working away from home that is getting to me. I had hoped we would be in a better place in our M before he starts to travel. Oh well, can't have everything. I told him that we should just see how the rest of the year goes, and then decide if we want to stay together. I feel like I am wimping out, but I can't put my D14 through all the garbage again. Not a huge sacrifice, since I have nowhere else to go anyway. I don't have the luxury of parents I can go to, or any other family, or even friends. And, I don't want to move my D14 to another city again (even if it's to one we lived in before). So, we see how the year goes. I have prayed for knowledge if anything is going on, and calmness if my H is being trustworthy. So, maybe my prayer is already answered, 'eh!

I must remember my goals, which will at least keep me busy, and my mind focused on other things.

Thanks for checking in on me, Aud, and I know I can always rely on your input Phoenix. I will check my email today. Take care.