I know this should probably go over in "infidelity," but we have our own "in-house expert" on A's over here & plus I just like you guys over here.
Anyway, questions about A's. (and no, I'm not dwelling, just kind of thinking/confused/wondering, etc.) Don't yell at me Hey!!
Do you ever get completely over it? Do you ever look at your spouse the same? I am looking @ his pic right now, one that used to just give me goosebumps (good ones) and I can say to myself "That's my H," however, I just don't see him the same way anymore.
His history was 2 EA's during a deployment, 1 PA (one night stand) supposedly she worked @ the hotel (he was staying at during another deployment) and she used master key, came in and gave him BJ, he kicked her out - oh, and he was drunk. Then recently another EA.
Does it matter how good I make things for him now? Will he always do this to me no matter how well I am taking care of him in all ways in our M?
I have decided absolutely no more snooping; he has told me that his latest "friend" "has been taken care of," however, will I ever truly trust him again? Will the feeling of doubt always be there? Like the other night, I said to him (re: our very active sex life) that I "am just taking advantage of the time we have left" and he said something about using his words. Well, I truly don't remember him saying these words to me, so I automatically wonder if he said them to someone else? I know, I know, but that's what I'm talking about -- do you always think this way???
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
