Tinkerbelle, he was likely cheating on you. The fact that you put up with his attitude for so long and continued to let him be your roommate was unattractive and it's not surprising that DB didn't work...you weren't someone he would want to be with. Move forward with your life. Start becoming complete without this man who isn't even worth pining away for. If you read his ad on e-harmony and it said, "Living with father, have kids but ignore them, gave up on previous marriage, don't give a damn about anyone", would you answer the ad and hope to hook up with him? What you are pining away for is what should have been or you felt could have been, rather than what is. So get your own life, one that he could be jealous of.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
