OH! One more thing I emailed him this morning the following:
WARNING! THIS IS LONG!! THANKS FOR READING AHEAD OF TIME!! <no need to reply> Please note this is not intended to you upset. Proverbs 6:32 & 33 But a man who commits adultery, lacks judgement; whosoever does so destroys himself. Blows and disgrace are his lot, and his shame will never be wiped away.
Keep in mind when you cheat, you are cheating those you profess to love. You are cheating your spouse of the partner they deserve. You are cheating you children of the parent they deserve..someone who lives with respect, honor and integrity. You are cheating your mother (father was and is aslo a multiple adulterer and alcholic) of the time and energy she spent attempting to form you into a descent person.
Remember when you cheat, you are cheating yourself. You are cheating yourself of the right to see your relationship mature and grow with a loving spouse. Cheating yourself of the right to have your children look at you with respect.
I cant go on like this anymore. I have asked God by opeing my mind to understand if this is the time to let you go. I don't know if this is why I am feeling "numb" or if this is the way God is preparing me to move on w/ out you. I think the more time passes on God will slowly take away any feelings I have so that the process will be that much easier .
I cannot and will not be in a three-way marriage. I will continue to do my "wifely" duties of cooking,etc. b/c the Bible says I must be the submissive wife and "feed the hungry", BUT that does not mean I will let you walk all over me like a doormat.
