Trying to piece at last

[hurtingbad]

Just Journalling

Apparently I have made a break through lol.

H has told his sister that we are trying again to see how it goes and when she asked so how is it going he said its going well YAY

Acoording to my BF H doing this is admitting he is trying again to somebody and is a major breakthrough? Dont know why but she says it is lol

Things are going well my oldest D and I are still talking about everything so she is calming down a touch lol I probs just blew it out of preportion lol.

H has had his tea over here a couple of times this week. And everything seems to be going good.

I do have one problem though its not a biggy to anyone else I suppose but is to me and I've got to control it (the control freak in me escaping again lol)

With his sister telling me she knows about us trying from him telling her (which she knew already cos I told her at the beginning cos she if my confident I can go talk to and know she wont tell anybody) Its sort of raised my hopes a little, well a lot really. I dont want them to be raised. I have tried to prepare myself for the fall that at the end of the trial he may say nothings changed and have been steeling myself for that. I know I can now cope and live without him so dont see myself getting as I was at the beginning but if my hopes are raised slightly and he says nothing has changed I may find myself getting upset.

What you all think?

Could do with some advice here lol

Hugs HB