I don't ever want to give up, but I'm really feeling hopeless now. Part of me now feels that if it really has no chance, then may be we should get it over. I have friends that say, it's done --- move on now. But, I just can't give up.
However, I'm not getting any younger and this really is very painful. Dragging it out could be even more painful. If I am going to be happy in the future, I've got to start sometime. This really isn't where I thought I'd be in life.
