A new year, a new perspective

[jethro]

just want to clarify, h was faced away from me and stayed that way, I said goodnight, he said keep warm but did not move toward me at all, stayed facing away from me till the am for a brief moment.

LL, is all of your frustration today a result of this one event? Honestly, it just sounds like he felt crappy and wanted some comforting. Guilt? Who knows, but he requested your presence, LL.

I did not want to go to sons bed cause I belong in my own bed.

You misunderstood what I wrote (and I can see why...it wasn't very clear). I meant to ask you why you'd rather sleep in S's bed rather than snuggle with your H.

what the hell did they talk about, or did h just listen to her?

I wondered the same thing and asked my W what she and OM talked about. She simply made generalities like our kids, his job, blah blah blah. Well, I'm sure they talked about other wonderful things too. Anyway, I'm drifting. I just wanted to say that I understand how you feel because our Ses are making time to talk to others when we want this kind of attention.

tired so very very tired

I know, LL...oh boy, I know.

wants to stop and bring home something for dinner so I don't have to bother cooking

Well, that's nice of him. Sounds like he's trying...

I guess as I said to my c, my way of working on the m for now will have to be to just work on myself and bettering my life and just leave things be for now.

This is what both of us need to do. These are their demons, not ours, and they have to exorcise them all by themselves.

so I know that I don't need h, but I know that I don't want to be alone (even though I can be) so what to do what to do???

Time will tell. For now, it's same'ol same'ol. See where the road takes you and see where the road takes your H. Right?

((((LL))))

jethro