ok ok, I know all in all that was a pretty great day.
but, I would have prefered h not talk on the phone to buddie while we were out. but I suppose h could have just said no he didn't want to go and stayed home to watch football. (think he might have if the stuff we were getting weren't for his bar? doesn't matter I suppose)
would have been better if it ended with more than a cuddle but hey I suppose I should be happy to get that.

yesterday was another decent day...

woke.. all of us (think I stayed in bed a bit longer than everyone else though)
made oatmeal for everyone.
h helped clean up.
h was getting ready to leave, had made himself instant coffee and it was almost gone, so I made some real coffe and put it in his travel cup.
h goes of to wherever he goes?
dd nap
hang with son and get dressed
dd wake
lunch
off to do grocery shopping, was fine til about the produce dept when son wanted to touch everythin and dd kept escaping from the cart it got worse at the register...I know understand those calgone comercials.
came home put groceries away (while son checked every bag looking for his go-gurt (yuck!)
dd nap
ticklefest with son
make dinner (beef stew, son decided to throw whole onion unpealed and all into the pot, I took care of it)
wake dd
h arrives @ 5
we all eat dinner
h helps clean up woa! h takes apart top of stove and cleans it!!
downstairs (playroom) to play
7ish bath (she put jelly in her hair) and bed for dd.
h and son on couch in "cave" watching rug-rats h on the verge of sleeping.
s bath and bed.
h asks if I want a fire, sure
h sits at puter reading a sports interview and checking weather, while I watch tv.
h then joins me by the fire to watch some tv.
h must have heard what I said the other night!
watch the news.
off to bed.

so there is another good day!! that is not to say that I am not still angry and hurt by what has happened and how things were before all this that it took for h to have an a and leave before realizing he had to participate in life here. that I am not still somewhat resentfull and hurt by this. BUT I have realized that if I want things to be better I have to let them be better and not dwell in the past. that is not to say that at some point some things will actually have to be discussed, but for now, things are good.

LL