She came today to pick my car up, things went well. My objective has been to keep things light. Start from scratch, try to build a really solid friendship. She did hang out a little bit when she picked it up, actually around 4 or 5 minutes of talking. I consider this to be a babystep as she usually tries to keep any contact with me minimal. She did give me a hug and kiss when she was leaving. I parked on the top of the parking deck and as she was starting to drive away she stopped and asked if I would like a ride back. I took the ride and then she gave me another kiss goodbye when I was getting out of the car to go in to my office.
This weekend she is going out of state to visit a friend. My objective is to be very supportive and positive about her visit. I told her today that her friend had IM'd me about looking forward to W's visit. I said it sounds like she is excited about this weekend, you guys are going to have lots of fun. She said I know, it will be fun. I got out, heeding Chuck's advice to leave her feeling positive about me.
No ILYs or anything like that, but plenty of babysteps.
Oh yeah, she did tell me yesterday that she was looking up info on the internet regarding rebuilding trust, she said, "I was looking things up on trust, stuff that says it can be rebuilt and stuff that says it can't". I took this as a positive. Yes, it is unsettling that she might read something that encourages her to pursue the D. At the same time, I take heart at knowing she read both sides of the issue, so that would indicate to me that she hasn't totally accepted that trust can't be rebuilt and there is no hope for our R.
I know it might sound strange but I have been praying that her mind would be closed to anyone that is encouraging her to seek a D or separation. I've been praying that God would intensely interfere in any relationship that is damaging to our R. I believe it will happen.
