I should write H a nice love letter. I thought about that after the drunken episode. I decided I should wait until he was over his hurt feelings. A love note then would have been disregarded. Then I forgot about it. I have given him letters before. I meant for them to be suggestive. He told me years later that they offended him. They were too bossy and critical. I did rattle on a lot about what I wished he would do and not do. He would love it if I wrote him a really nice letter. He told me that he likes my apology e-mails. So something endearing would really make him feel good. That won't be an e-mail. It will mean more on paper. I will have to think about where to put it because he makes his own lunch. There's another idea--I should make his lunch. I don't know why I never thought of that before. Duh.
To get back to the lack of sexpertise. I still keep thinking that maybe if sex was more fun, it would give him a reason to look forward to it and maybe want to be a little friskier.
