Quote: I'm also convinced you can do something and not sacrifice staying at home with the kids.
you are right, and it would be a sacrifice that I am not willing to make. They are only little once and for such a short time, s will be starting pre-school next year and on it goes from there...do I really want to give (or pay someone else the pleasure) these precouse years away just so I can have a life?? certainly not. I have looked into local gyms and think I've found one that has on sit child care. that is a good thing gives them a little play time with someone other than "ma-ma" or as dd says "ma-mee" and gives me the opportunity to workout and hell if they've got a hot tub, chill for a bit. so there's that and then I have been rattling my brain a bit thinking there must be some local home for teens or something like that that could use some evening help even if 2 nights a week (walmart is ok but I do have a degree rotting away so why not do something that would look good on a resume)
so these things are in my head..now just have to get motivated and do them.
h and I got along fine today, I was mistaken last night he did not go up to our bed. he went to son's bed, found him there when I went up, asked him to please come to bed. he did, I hugged him and that was that. I didn't bother him this am, I got up with dd and then son woke eventually I made breakfast and then let h know it was ready at 9...I even made him coffee.
h still seems a bit distant...maybe my own perceptions? his buddie seems to be lonley again today cause he called this am, then again while we were on the way to my moms, and now h is on the phone with him again (though this time I think h called him). he knows I am at the puter and yes he knows I come to this site. so maybe that is why he is downstairs talking to buddie.
for now I think I will just go about my business and let h lead, I'd rather be persued anyway.
