Quote: trying to do it, thinking about doing it, but the guilt of feeling like a failure because I couldn't deal with staying home with the kids creeps in. I don't know? I want to stay home with them, but then I want a life too, maybe it's just the winter and the sit getting to me, I didn't feel this way over the summer and then the baby was still baby, (not that 1 1/2 isn't a baby but you get my point)
I think it's very admirable you staying at home with the kids, and I wouldn't suggest not doing that by any shape of the imagination. My W does this and I think it's one of the most important things a mother can do. I think one of the things that drove my W to do what she did was that she was at home all the time and didn't do ANYTHING else (except go to the gym). This really got to her because she's pretty outgoing and is a person that needs to keep moving. You strike me as the same type of personality. I understand that living somewhat remotely makes it even more difficult on you, but YOU have to think of YOU. Put on the thinking cap to see what you can come up with. Perhaps a part-time job (1 day a week) or something? Local, volunteer work? I don't know, but I'm convinced it would help that PMA. I'm also convinced you can do something and not sacrifice staying at home with the kids.
