Quote: Solution=get out and do your own thing. Perhaps your focus on other thing will relieve some of the focus you have on H, thus reducing pressure for yourself (and maybe pressure for H?). Just MHO. God forbid I walk on eggshells with you.
trying to do it, thinking about doing it, but the guilt of feeling like a failure because I couldn't deal with staying home with the kids creeps in. I don't know? I want to stay home with them, but then I want a life too, maybe it's just the winter and the sit getting to me, I didn't feel this way over the summer and then the baby was still baby, (not that 1 1/2 isn't a baby but you get my point)
I know having my own life and my own things will take some pressure off of h. I am still involved with the book club that I started over the summer, actually getting some others involved too...just had a lag with it due to the holidays.
also trying to start doing something each week with a few girlfriends, some in the area and some from hometown. dinner & movie or just girlie chit chat. just to get away. the holidays I guess are just a bad time for it.
looked on line yesterday for a health club and found one that looks appealing and has childcare..so maybe I'll go take a look and join up get in shape again!!
my c keeps pushing me to go back to school, I don't think I am ready for it yet and what's the rush anyway? I already have the bs.
crapper, was going to take a shower while dd slept and h and son are outside but dd just woke up! what to do, I need a shower. maybe I'll just take dd in with me, used to do that with son, poopie though cause she's already dressed all cute and christmasy, we're going to my moms to make up for christmas...and all the cousins will be there.
hopefully I can just keep on keeping on and try to make the best of every day and every sit. learning what is worth a fight and what isn't. I goofed last night and i know it. I was focussed on the other cell phone. should have just said "oh thanx for turning the truck around" but you can't erase yesterday can you? you can only carry on.
