Quote: should I just be like him and his mother...make the decision all on my own and just tell him??
Would it help?
Quote: I just want peace!! I want to breath! I want to know that I can run over to my h and hug him and not have it be "persuit" I just want to be me damn it!!
You know, I've only had my W back for about a week...well, maybe I should say, so far the alien has been gone for a week--I think you know what I mean. In any case, I find myself wanting to be more affectionate also...like I used to. But then I second-guess myself. Do I...don't I? Should I...shouldn't I? Will plan X bring my closer to goal A, or will plan Y? Ugh!
In any case, LL, I'm sorry you're feeling down. Maybe in the morning (which is all of a few hours from now and you probably won't get this) YOU should act "as if."
LL, your posts scream, "get me out!" I think you've answered all your questions. Let's see, your H is back home and NOT with OW. Good. You are falling under old habits of dependency. Bad. You're going crazy with white walls all day long (cabin fever). Bad. Solution=get out and do your own thing. Perhaps your focus on other thing will relieve some of the focus you have on H, thus reducing pressure for yourself (and maybe pressure for H?). Just MHO. God forbid I walk on eggshells with you. I do it all day long here!
