Quote: You talked about doing this and that (like a job) to keep yourself busy. Do you think if you really went after it, it would be the same as when you acted "as if" to get your H back? In other words, do you think by doing your own thing, it will bring your H closer? Seemed like it worked before...
it was a bit easier for me to do my own thing before, because we were separated and h came to "visit" the kids, when he came (after I realized it did no good to play happy family) I'd leave, I had every tues and thurs night free, every other sat night free, and every sunday free to do my own thing!! now it seems I need permission or need to make a request, hell h left yesterday morning at 9:30 am and still isn't home and it's 6 pm the next day, yes he did stop by some time round 4am to plow our driveway but it's me and the kids as usual!!
so last night on the phone h made a big boo boo!! he was rambling of what he had to do and said then I'll have to come up their and plow "your" driveway, when I said I wish you hadn't said that, he said oh I'm sorry s's driveway. even worse, so then he had to go..I called back and said, "what'd ya go plow her driveway and get sucked back into that world that this is my house?" he had to go, the truck was stuck.
well when h did come in at 5 am he did apologize but whatever.
I really don't know if I can live with all this. I'm trying and sometimes things are going well and other times I think the only reason I am doing this is because of the kids. but if h is still seeing or talking to or thinking about ow, why bother????
oh do I need a life, and I think the next time I see SI i'll have to give him a good whack for his 2cents comment..sheesh of all things to pull out of my posts...way to go boosting a fellow dbr's pma SI good thing you don't have your own thread cause I'd really tear you a new one right now!!
