Quote: Is his love language act of service? I see him working very hard for his family,
I honestly don't know, cause when he was fully adimant about wanting a d, he still wanted to pay for the house and provide (very well) for the kids and ME, he wanted to cut the lawn, brought me a drink if I happend to be here at the same time as him, talked of putting in a pool for the kids and I etc...all this while he was "in love" with ow and planning to be with her. he wasn't doing these things for her? so then what is his love language?? dammed if I know, don't think he does either.
I have been feeling down lately and I don't think it has anything to do with h. when h left I had already started to loose the pregnancy weight and just kept loosing over the summer, got to the point that people were asking if I was eating, my clothes (even the new ones) were hanging on me, I was getting to be skin and bones, a month or two before h's return I got my appetite back and now that h is back it seems like I am always hungry (and no their is no pregnancy inducing hunger) so since h's return I have put back on 10lbs. and I don't like it. maybe I'll find a new gym to join and just keep the cookies that I bake in the freezer (I hate them cold but h and son don't mind them that way so if I keep them there I wont eat them)
also have been thinking alot about what I am going to do with my life. what do I want to be when I grow up?? do I have to grow up??? I will be 30 this month, is that bothering me?
so things to do soon.
find a new gym in the area that doesn't cost a fortune. preferably one with an in house day-care for patrons. (hey why not right as long as it's clean)
go tanning (may help with the cabin fever and a tan is always purty)
find a part time job, could settle for walmart but would prefer to find a halfway house for teens or something like that needing night help.
talk to friends sister who is a hs guidance councelor about her job (pay, schedule, requirements etc)
get back to keeping the focus on me.. and letting h be h.
